"so wide eyed and hopeful. wide eyed and hopefully wild."

i have found myself saying it more than once in my life - everything is so great, and i have never been so happy- but this time it is so obvious. i have never had such notable goals for myself before. i am in college and doing very well at it. two things i never thought i would hear myself say. who can be held accountable for such worthwhile improvements in my demeanor and every day life? the answer is 50% myself and 50% my amazing boyfriend, christopher (spartachris).

i have never felt so beautiful to a man in my life. every day he takes my face into his hands and kisses me - often more than once. he loves being near me and even spending too much time with me. he constantly reminds me of my worth and always raises my spirits when they are low. him and i have found the balance that we have been searching for our whole lives. i never thought that someone would say to me that i improve their quality of life, especially more than once. that i make everything seem better. it is crazy because that is what i always strive for in my relationships - making my companion feel, see, and hear their true worth to me and this world.

my amazing man. i never want it to end. my appreciation and gratitude for being so blessed will never cease as long as my spirit exists in this world or another.